From Bad to Good (Where I Stand Today)

Probably the most life changing experience I've had was my mother moving in with my aunt (her sister) and seperating from my dad. They still haven't divorced, their just seperated. This happened when I was 9 years old, about 7 years ago. She still isn't really in my life, even though we talk no more than about twice a month and see each other the same amount. She does buy me stuff, but the most last thing I got from her was some minimizer bras and 60 dollars in like November 2008. I asked her for some money recently, but my dad just gave it to me and she paid him back. When I was nine, I used to go to Sieden Prairie in Matteson (the suburbs). I LOVED that school. I was "popular" I guess and I know all the older kids since I was "Josh's lil sister." I loved that because I was a hit with the older kids and I had a potlight of my own with the kids in my grade. I wanted to graduate from there, however, my mother's leaving caused us to lose the BIG house we had, move in with her and my Auntie Verna, and eventually move into my Uncle Rick's house with my dad and my brother. Sadly, I had to go to Indiana School in Park Forest because I didn't live in the area of Sieden Prairie anymore. At least I had fit in there, being that I was kinda shy. During my 5th grade year in Indiana, we moved into our own house, where my sister and two nieces moved in with us. They moved after a while and short after that we had to move again to my grandparents house in the city because someone broke into ours. This is where I had the most trouble. Even though I met my cousin/best friend Monique across the street, I had a hard time at my new school Vanderpoel. I had no idea how city kids where. They cursed, they danced, they kissed, they had boyfriends and girlfriends, and some had sex. I was an innocent little eleven year old in 6th grade. I did get tease or whatever and my problems at home didn't make it any better. But each year at Vanderpoel, each teasing I got, made me even stronger. I was never scared to fight, but I was so little then. All the other kids looked like they could take me, but I got so mad with all in my life I didn't care who you where, I'd fight you. Luckily, I never been in a fight before. I had my friends to keep me good, and finally I graduated. High school was a turning point for me. My freshman year here, I made tons of good friends and ton of memories and they got even better my sophomore year. I've grown so much...I'm FAR from that shy little suburban girl I once was. Maybe because I was originally born here in the city. I take no b.s. from anyone and I have a new outlook on everything. I feel that I am a very mature person and who would've thought all this would happened because my mother somewhat ruined my life. I DEFINATELY have a new outlook on religion being that she was once a Catholic with a Catholic priest for a father and now she's a Jehovah's Witness contradicting everything she's said and done. I do feel like I am who I am for a reason, and I do feel like in some way, I'll change the world with the knowledge I have gained. The worst things that happened have worked out for the better as you can see...I used to have a low self-esteem in 5th grade...now I'm just as cocky as I am modest (I'm kinda both), I used to be shy, now I make everyone laugh and I am outgoing and talkative. Thank-you mommy for this...not trying to be sarcastic, but I do thank her in some ways. I really don't need a mother too much now, my daddy has done a good jobs raising me.

Changes To Make For The 2nd Semester

I am a genious....if I'm lyin', I'm fryin'. However, I don't think I apply myself as much as I should because I just don't like school work. Well, most of the school work is ok, but in most of the classes I need to pass to graduate, they give me the most mind-numbing work I have EVER had in my life. So, with that being said, I lose interest and more than likey won't do the work. That's change #1. It's not like I don't do my homework at all, but just as often as I do my work (which is often) I'll forget some other assignments in other classes from time to time. From now on, if I understand how to do my homework, I'll try to finish it before the bell rings. I've kinda got into the habit of doing that. Change #2 is my tardiness. I am ALWAYS late for 1st period. When I do go to 1st period, I always do my work. And for someone who is ALWAYS late, I did pretty well on my semester final (maybe because it was open-book, but still!!) I have already started my plan to get to school on time. All I have to do is get my things ready the night before. I mean get EVERYTHING ready, like my hair (that's what eats up the most time, about 20 minutes to be exact), iron my clothes, and get all the stuff I need for the tomorrow in my bookbag. So, all I'll have to do is shower and get dressed. Awesome. I know if I change these two and only two things I could very well be one among the top 10 juniors. I understand the work, I get good scores on my tests, I always participate in the classroom, and I definately don't play when it comes to projects. With me, procrastinating with a project is not an option. I am absolutely changing my ways come this semester so I can definately get into the programs and college(s) I want to apply to. (If I'm lyin', I'm fryin'!)

Winter Break: Mari, Mykenya, and ME!!!!

Oh my gosh!!! I'm sick of Shamaria Sanford and Mykenya Simmons!!! I've been hanging with then darn there every other day of the break...to the mall, Hunny Bunny's party, to the nail shop, to Mykenya's cousin's crib, to my house, to Mari house...I'M SICK OF IT!! Even though we did have fun. The day after Christmas, we went to the mall with Woola, (Mari's 12- year old cousin aka my cousin who I will beat up if I ever see her around a boy...) and, well, didn't do that much shopping because people keep fighting or trying to fight in the mall. I had my camera and, as Gucci Mane would say, "When I hit tha mall...it's a photoshoot!!!", literally. I mean, people I didn't even know just jumped in my pictures. Especially this gang of boys who I don't know and will more than likely never see in my life ever again. Just save the pic for memories, I guess. Don't get me started on New Year's Eve. We was supposed to go to Hunny Bunny's (Darrien aka Hollywood aka Holly, yes he's a boy) party on 51st and King Drive, but the bus stopped running. At least we got a little wasted...har har har (j/p) we got kinda sexy for nothing and Mari and I spent the night at MuhKenYen's (Mykeny's) house. We acted a little stupid there...ok really stupid, wacking each other with pillows and and just talking, talking, talking. And just yesterday, Mari and I had to go to the museum to do this project for Mr. Turner, so we acted like a fool in the museum, banged some Subway o on Cottage, and picked up Kenya to go to the mall so she can return her pants and I can get minesz. We have no life....SIKE!!! We do way way way way way way way way way way way way way way way way WAY more than this, but I can only say so much... SO STAY TUNED FOR MORE ADVENTURES OF SYD, MARI, AND KENDENZ!!!!