From Bad to Good (Where I Stand Today)

Probably the most life changing experience I've had was my mother moving in with my aunt (her sister) and seperating from my dad. They still haven't divorced, their just seperated. This happened when I was 9 years old, about 7 years ago. She still isn't really in my life, even though we talk no more than about twice a month and see each other the same amount. She does buy me stuff, but the most last thing I got from her was some minimizer bras and 60 dollars in like November 2008. I asked her for some money recently, but my dad just gave it to me and she paid him back. When I was nine, I used to go to Sieden Prairie in Matteson (the suburbs). I LOVED that school. I was "popular" I guess and I know all the older kids since I was "Josh's lil sister." I loved that because I was a hit with the older kids and I had a potlight of my own with the kids in my grade. I wanted to graduate from there, however, my mother's leaving caused us to lose the BIG house we had, move in with her and my Auntie Verna, and eventually move into my Uncle Rick's house with my dad and my brother. Sadly, I had to go to Indiana School in Park Forest because I didn't live in the area of Sieden Prairie anymore. At least I had fit in there, being that I was kinda shy. During my 5th grade year in Indiana, we moved into our own house, where my sister and two nieces moved in with us. They moved after a while and short after that we had to move again to my grandparents house in the city because someone broke into ours. This is where I had the most trouble. Even though I met my cousin/best friend Monique across the street, I had a hard time at my new school Vanderpoel. I had no idea how city kids where. They cursed, they danced, they kissed, they had boyfriends and girlfriends, and some had sex. I was an innocent little eleven year old in 6th grade. I did get tease or whatever and my problems at home didn't make it any better. But each year at Vanderpoel, each teasing I got, made me even stronger. I was never scared to fight, but I was so little then. All the other kids looked like they could take me, but I got so mad with all in my life I didn't care who you where, I'd fight you. Luckily, I never been in a fight before. I had my friends to keep me good, and finally I graduated. High school was a turning point for me. My freshman year here, I made tons of good friends and ton of memories and they got even better my sophomore year. I've grown so much...I'm FAR from that shy little suburban girl I once was. Maybe because I was originally born here in the city. I take no b.s. from anyone and I have a new outlook on everything. I feel that I am a very mature person and who would've thought all this would happened because my mother somewhat ruined my life. I DEFINATELY have a new outlook on religion being that she was once a Catholic with a Catholic priest for a father and now she's a Jehovah's Witness contradicting everything she's said and done. I do feel like I am who I am for a reason, and I do feel like in some way, I'll change the world with the knowledge I have gained. The worst things that happened have worked out for the better as you can see...I used to have a low self-esteem in 5th grade...now I'm just as cocky as I am modest (I'm kinda both), I used to be shy, now I make everyone laugh and I am outgoing and talkative. Thank-you mommy for this...not trying to be sarcastic, but I do thank her in some ways. I really don't need a mother too much now, my daddy has done a good jobs raising me.